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Me, The Pain Whore

admin — Wed, 14 Nov 2007 16:02:54 +0000

Some times I do not remember that new people coming to visit here do not know much about me. I am a submissive women and I love it hot and as nasty as I can get it. I am a pain whore and like to be hurt and often press the limits of dominate men or women I am loaned to, pain limits that is.

I have had my pain threshold tested over and over again and it seems the only place I can’t handle it is burning but most of the dominants I have been with in the past are not into doing anything that will scar me anyway, that is a good thing. Other than child hood scars I am mar free other than my brand.

I do have a master who is a speaker on niteflirt as well he is straight but will do pain domination on men as well as self infliction which works well on the phone. He expects to be worshiped by every one he comes in contact with the only exceptions being other dominant men and with them he just becomes a world to himself as he does not see any other dominant man as part of his world.

If it pleases him and he is gaining some type of satisfaction out of it he does loan me out in real time to singles couples and groups and my functions could be any thing from serving to full on sadistic sex. He insists on being present do the modest need never apply!

On the other hand I must please men on the phone daily this is how I show my usefulness as well as maintain my upkeep which sometimes I am quit high maintenance.

Rarely do I participate in bondage. I am very claustrophobic and I suppose you could call that a limit but most Masters are very careful in that realm and push very lightly. I do not make it a hard limit because I try very hard to please.

Master permits me to have my own relationships to some extent and they are very helpful in his long absences as he does much BDSM work from coast to coast. Some times he takes me most of the time he does not which is why I am allowed to do phone sex.

If he is in town, as he will be all this week, he does take calls from his followers as well as taking calls with me. He enjoys hearing what my callers would like him to do to me and obliging them. It is a very intimate sex game for us. I like including my callers in my pain, humiliation and pleasure.

I am a happy, intelligent, no limits, collared and branded pain whore at your disposal to use as you see fit! Call and get to know me or just rape my tight little holes!!

This is the button to call Johnny if you are so inclined.

Small Cock Academy

admin — Tue, 13 Nov 2007 05:44:45 +0000

I have begun a new series of recordings and writings for all my little cocked boys who want to enjoy being humiliated and laughed at for their dinky little dicks while actually doing something to elevate themselves to the status of real men.

This series is called The Small Cock Academy. The instructional materials I provide after much research into the “tiny” problem are meant to be coupled with guided masturbation, exercise, relaxation, and devotion.

There will also be a boot camp for those that are “hard cases” and need motivation on a deeper level.

You can gain access to the second step of the program by clicking here. If you have decided to click you have already taken the first step admitting you have an abysmally microscopic excuse for a penis.

New Prices New Pictures!

admin — Tue, 09 Oct 2007 13:45:04 +0000

So I fixed all of my listings! I challenge you to find one that is all fucked up now! You would not believe the garbage I found on my web pages, eek, did I really suck so bad! I swear I had no idea!

But now, oh , just have a look at my listings! They will rock your socks! Have a look!

http://www.niteflirt.com/mmmhollywould

I even did a new photo shoot and plan to do some more in the very near future, any suggestions?

I did notice though I had some hidden sneeze listings you might want to check out.

Here is one. It truly rocks. http://www.niteflirt.com/listingdetails/Find-Women/mmmhollywould/0-0-0-6612528

I went through and changed some prices on different live listings but really revamped the recorded ones.

I hope you enjoy them!

Cry for the Camera’s, Tori, Cry Bitch!

admin — Fri, 27 Aug 2010 03:36:35 +0000

I thought I would take a moment to share with you my absolute favorite porn site. I was introduced to it by a caller from London back in my salad days of phone sex working for a company instead of niteflirt. I promise you when I went to check it out, I was not expecting much but instead found myself captivated.

Basically these guys take amature, wanna be and seasoned porn stars into their studios as if they are going in for a garden variety shoot, pay them a lot of money and proceed to verbally rip apart their self esteem until they cry while doing all manner of nasty shit to them like in this rising cum catcher, Tori Lane.

Not only does she get her pussy fucked hard by a couple of porn hands but they do it until she screams and cries. You want to see how down right rough this scene gets? Check out her nasty ass trailer here at Meat Holes.Com

It doesn’t stop there though, it gets even kinkier! Even if you are not into dacryphilia (crying fetish) you might just think it is fucking amazing when they suction her cunt until it swells up like a fucking life preserver! It looked painful but alas she was already in tears!Want to watch more of this fuck pig’s raunchy movie? You can at Meat Holes.Com right now!

My Favorite Calls and the Purple Monster

admin — Sun, 05 Aug 2007 02:54:30 +0000

Sometimes people ask me what is my favorite call and my best answer is I do not have a “favorite call” really but am always the most happy when I have done an excellent job pleasing the man on the other end.

If I have been as nasty and dirty as his he wants to be with me and pushed me to please him, then I too am pleased.

The one thing I know I am very good at an almost everyone asked me to do is gag. Sometimes I will be asked to suck on my dildo or I will simply be told to suck their cock if they do the latter I pull out the purple monster.

I think of the purple monster as your cock while I am on the phone and let me tell you it will give m a terrific gag fucking if that is what you like! I certainly do because after I have been gagging on the monster foe several minutes I am covered in spit and thick throat goo and because the next place it usually goes is quite tight that goo comes in handy (subby secret: it is better than any lube)

So my favorite calls have to be blow calls because I am very good at giving exactly what is wanted and if the master so deems am absolutely an anal sex enthusiast so the final outcome of a good throat fucking will have me cumming and cumming and cumming…..

Cuckolding Holly Style

admin — Sat, 28 Jul 2007 09:37:32 +0000

The word cuckold which is derived from the word “cuckoo” referring to a bird that lays its eggs in other birds’ nests to be raised by the unsuspecting bird this relates to men in as much that the man is raising offspring as his that very well may not be.

I can comment on cuckolding today and why it is not a woman shifting all of the blame on her husband or significant other. As it is practiced today, as a fetish and sometimes a life style, it is where a man and woman, the woman being the Dominant and the man being the submissive, consensually practice cuckoldry either as a lifestyle or occasionally for sexual gratification. In this type of lifestyle the man is often denied any sexual relations with his wife and is often in the room, nearby or even helps to choose his wife’s sexual partner(s). He is fully aware of what is happening and has chose to, at some point to be a voluntary participant in this type of relationship and as for some reason that I cannot fathom, guess it is just the slut in me, a submissive man is always denied sex from the Dominant woman because the mere act of allowing a man to penetrate you is an act of submission in this mindset. Least that is how it is explained to me by the few men who I talk to and want domination from me.

On a side note there are two types of sissy-boys who call me. One type calls to show just how pathetic they are, I mean really, how low do you have to be to call an admitted lifestyle submissive to dominate you. When you have so little self that it is possible I guess that is when. The second type calls for me to train them to be s dirty little slut. If you are going to call anyone why not call an expert?

Station break over back to cucks!

Some men who enjoy cuckolding wish to be active participants in the cuckolding and often will get nasty with the other male either by actively becoming his bitch and taking it like a whore or by playing clean up crew and sucking up all the goo and vacuuming out the holes.

These girly men are often told how insignificant they are or unworthy for lack of physical, or mental strength or do to a minuscule tool. This verbal humiliation is not evil or cruel as it is a part of the sexual dynamic of this relationship they expect and desire.

It is actually funny to me to think about cuckolding because I was talking to a mistress I know and she said something to me about being a bad cuck because I was having fits about one of Johnny’s slaves. I had never seen myself as a cuckold before the words slid out of her pretty mouth. If you think about it though, I am a cuckold, if the word did not have gender assignment. I have a dominant male who sometimes is with other women if I am there or not and I am not permitted to be with other men. The fundamental difference though between a female submissive and a male submissive is that the only time a female slave is ever denied sex is when she is being trained or punished. We get it constantly. The men NEVER do!

As in all BDSM relationships, no matter what their particular kink, it is about a power exchange. You cannot call the submissive the victim because he or she is getting exactly what they want. You can even question, “Who really has the power” because as stated before the submissive is getting precisely what they want.

Dirty Mind Dirty Dreams

admin — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 06:06:07 +0000

Master A loves to DP me and have me write for him and I likewise love to be DP’ed while writing blogs, trust me it adds a whole new perspective to blogging. Sometimes I wish he could call me at night and tell me dirty bed times stories about his sexcapades. I do like to take calls right before I go to bed because not only do I usually get off as I do with master A but I usually dream about what ever I talked about right before sleep. Them my mind gets a hold of it and tears it up in ways I would even be to embarrassed to mention here. I am so dirty in my head it is embarrassing.

That is what I like about my calls, especially those with Master A. I can go places that normally I would be to embarrassed to go. It is very scary to share ones deep dark secrets here in the indelible writing of the Internet. On the phone I can let go and be free to be me.

Sometimes theater of the mind is the only place you really can be free. I dare you call me and go all those deep dark places Master A and I go.

Why it is Important to be a Good Girl

admin — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 18:04:59 +0000

Memory, Gods damn it, Damn my memory. I struggle so hard with it sometimes and do quite well with my little notebook to remind me of the things I must do and the things I must write but having the little notebook is not appropriate during calls or during sex I do not think. So I am left to this on my own with no help…..

I want to do good and I want to be very pleasing but it is hard because I do not remember if my reflection, my devotion is on, for lack of a better term the thesis statement :

Why Good Girls Get Punished

Why it is Important to be a Good Girl

I can write both but I am not sure witch one so I am going to go with the latter because it suits Johnny’s esoteric style. While it may not be esoteric to most it is to me because you never know what they, they being Doms, are looking for. I like specifics and they never give them!

So here goes.

I know you might expect me to write that I think it is important to be a good girl so I do not get punished but punishment is only a small part of a bigger picture. Punishment like writing keeps my focus and puts me back in subspace where I belong, where I wish to dwell all the time but why it is important to be good is so much more than that.

For me , being pleasing is the most important and when I am not pleasing I am not really happy and I have no sense of my own perfection but only how another sees me and If you do not think I am perfect then I am not pleasing. The only opinion in that matter is that of the Master.

Yes, I will push boundaries when I am not in control and or to test you and want and expect you to keep those boundaries closed and not let me slip through a crack in the wall because even in my success I will fail. Fail both you and myself.

The most important reason to be a good girl is because it makes me happy to be good. It makes me happy to be who you want me to be and I cannot be any of those things if you do not remind me.

Control my Climate Keep my Focus

admin — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 17:32:53 +0000

I am not sure if it is harder or easier to write when freezing. I understand the concept and figure it is much like Dr.Wicked’s Writing Lab where outside stimulus keeps your focus. Dr wicked uses sound and in advanced mode takes your words away and Dom A uses the frigid Georgia winter weather. Wait, let me step back a moment. It is not so cold here like places in the north where it is below freezing but enough to give me goose bumps and keep my nipples hard as pebbles.

Did I mention the butt plug? Yep it is there too, to keep me writing, another one of those outside stimuli. I like it when this is done. I like to be made to write. I miss it very much and in the last two days I have had three writing assignments. Beat that(or beat me)! I go from a virtual sub frenzy to control. I love being in control and would not have it any other way.

I think this is something Dom A understands , “Idle Hands Are The Devil’s Tools” the same can be said for thoughts so writing is an excellent way to focus both on the good of the slave, ME!

I do enjoy listening to Dom A and hearing his stories they are very exciting and frightening, frightening in my phobia of bondage. He found for me the name of the phobia and I cannot wait to find out what it is called. Perhaps he will be willing to grab my other phobia by its horns and find its name, the name for my fear of midgets.

When I fantasize about his retelling of his experiences I always put myself in the place of his slave and in this theater in my mind I can go where ever he takes me and there I can go anywhere. It is hard to image my mind bridging my reality because every time I have begun to go there I freeze and experience fight or flight and will take which ever out seems more achievable form my perspective at the time. It is crazy what adrenaline can do. I have broken bonds and bitten through a ball gag.

So scary yes but defiantly much fun!

Body Modification: The Ultimate Devotion

hollywould — Fri, 23 Jan 2009 18:05:17 +0000

I wanted to share my darkest desire and I know many out there are not into body modification but I see it, in BDSM, as the ultimate show of devotion for the slave and the Master.

What greater honor could bestow a slave than to be allowed to wear proudly her master’s mark? Especially if it was something she earned. I know there are a lot of dominant men out there who think as soon as a slave enters their stable they should be permanently marked but to me this is a ridiculous line of thought. Their mark should represent not notches on a bed post, on a belt or in this case some part of a slaves body no this mark represents his sign of devotion to her as well as hers to him. He has chose to display to the world his property, his property that he has chose to cherish and keep safe for a long time to come not just a notch.

The slave is making the sacrifice here, making a indelible mark on her body, her being to show her complete and total devotion.

I find it offensive to think it would be taken lightly by any responsible respectable Master. A master who just uses it as a notch on his belt is unworthy of respect and that light will shine through eventually but sadly for the slave not until after the mark has been placed.

I would love nothing more than to be so honored as to be allowed to wear my masters barcode on the back of my neck. Unfortunately that has not happened for me yet but it has for others at http://www.slaveregister.com/

Here many dominate and submissive couples and groups go to register their slaves for the world to see then, some take it a step further and take the bar code generated for them and make it in to jewelry and body modifications.

I would love to have the honor of wearing the jewelry even but as of yet it has not happened for me. A branding on my ass or a tattoo at the nape of my neck would be outstanding.

Here are some photos from http://www.slaveregister.com/ I enjoyed: